I am having a really bad BPD day today. Depression has set in and settled down all nice and comfy in the corner of my mind.
In the past few days I have been using the email option for The Samaritans.
In the beginning I was unsure. When I got a response, I was hopeful.
But as I answered the questions they asked, I found myself feeling
considerably worse. I'm not insinuating that they are a 'bad' group. I
am just sayin that this has become a really bad day as far as emotions
go. Im lonely, which is no real shock considering I have only myself to
keep me company just like last week and the week before.
The
movies I have been watching are no longer effective In taking my mind
off things. My desire to create beautiful images and works of art has
become little more than a dried up husk. I find I have no tears left to
cry. I'm just feeling very....hollow.
So.. like I said. Having a rather bad emotion day.
Hopefully tomorrow will be better,